Changed My Life
I walked around this earth feeling disconnected, overworked and overwhelmed. No matter how many positive choices I made, there was always something wrong with my life. Everything felt like a battle, even when it wasn't. If anyone asked me to do anything, I went immediately into overdrive and totally overwhelmed myself. Eventually, the slightest task felt like a huge burden. I was afraid I was going to have to go on short term disability to have time to try to "figure out my life".
After watching Louise Hay's "You Can Heal Your Life" DVD at least ten times, and crying every single time, I accepted that there may be alternatives to how I thought. My brain was fried, I was going too fast in too many directions, and knew something had to change. As Louise says, I was finally "willing to change".
My journey back to zen began when I was referred to Dr. Force in March of 2011.
After my exam, Dr. Force explained that I had "sympathetic dominance". I was in "fight or flight" most of the time, and I knew he was right. I hadn't the slightest idea how to stop being this way. I had been this way most of my life. I had been rewarded financially for my adrenalin fueled work ethic and was afraid I'd turn into a "mediocre" performer if I stopped pushing myself so hard. I have perfectionist tendencies and this would never be acceptable to me. What if people stopped respecting me at work? Would I look "lazy"?
During treatment, I was able to contemplate my life and see where I had gone wrong. Over the period of 60 days, I was slowly able to eat healthy foods that had upset my stomach for years. I was able to handle even the most critical emergencies at work with a genuinely calm, serene demeanor. I was able to sit down and read a book without distraction. I read everything I could about the human nervous system, and how I could get back to a "parasympathetic dominant" state. As the walls came down, I found myself feeling things and questioning my life's purpose. I trusted him fully with each and every emotional issue that crept up. In a matter of a few weeks, the miracle known as "NET" brought healing and freedom that would have taken years to achieve in my trusted psychologist's office. Layer by layer, each painful memory gave way to acceptance and understanding of how life really works.
Each week, I was given different assignments at what seemed to be just the right time. As someone who would never sit down and read the entire Bible, who would have ever thought to just read the "red print" for inspiration? Dr. Force came up with very unique exercises for me to learn and grow while I healed.
In just over 60 days, I went from a state of inner chaos to feeling once again connected to a higher power. I am free of the emotional and physical burdens that were keeping me from having the life I truly wanted. I can't say enough good things about him.
If you are "willing to change", there is no better partner than Dr. Force.
~Anonymous